Let Me Update You!
So I left off the last post with a "to be continued" vibe, and here is the latest update! I've been trying to get my motivation into gear, which includes canceling my car insurance, deferring loans, canceling amazon subscription, as well as my WiFi bill... so much stuff tying me down...
I even started laying out clothes to pack, and made an entire list of what all I need to bring! Now I have always loved the idea of simplifying my life down to one bag travel type of person...but I've come to realize this is going to be a very hard thing to accomplish... partially due to the fact that I absolutely hate having an 'empty' living space. It's so depressing to me and just does not feel like home. Also I am a very sentimental person... things can have value for the dumbest reasons and only when its 5 years later and I can't remember that reason does that thing get thrown out. It's a little embarrassing really...haha. Nevertheless moving and sorting and packing is the lifestyle that I signed up for when I moved across the Atlantic. Btw, for those of you being so kind and helpful about moving/ storing things, or keeping things for me, you have no idea how grateful I am. I do not have the luxury of just keeping my things with my parents because that would entail me shipping everything thousands of miles. Honestly for any international student/person this is probably one of the most helpful things you could do for them because storage units are expensive and its always a stressful process to do this on a regular basis just fyi! And for me personally it's right up there with financial responsibilities...
Anyways I finally got up the motivation today to start cleaning things, and then in my "procrastinative" nature sat down to finish this draft I've had open for days, because a new 'lesson' has been on my mind as of late and actually it accompanies the last one I told you about my battle with fears and worry. So in church they've been teaching from the book of Nehemia; and the last two Sundays I attended (I've been a little lazy...sorry!) have focused on Chapter 4 where the Israelites are trying to rebuild Jerusalem's walls and they are discouraged already to begin with because so many before them had failed, but then on top of that they were being challenged by enemies who didn't want them to succeed. Those enemies were seen and unseen. So our preacher pointed out a few things that got my attention, because they were those things you hear and then go: "Really God?.. okokokok I'm hearing ya!"
1. We are more likely to cave/give up to the roaring lion trying to devour us, when we are tired, lonely or discouraged.
2. We usually want things fixed the quick way -> we look for a pill to medicate our problems
3. Nehemia's plan involved prayer first and armed guards at the identified weaknesses in the wall.
Okay, I am well aware these are not earth-shattering bits of information to anyone..BUT! I know you have had those moments when all is going wrong and you're trying to learn from it and someone says the most generic, basic thing and it just shifts your perspective on your circumstances. Well I'm in that place right now. Every mountain I had to overcome last year would always make me want to give up on graduating. Well even now, the fear of not getting my finances together, lack of motivation to pack up my things, and ever more tasks that keep building up just keep beating down my energy and willingness to do something that is taking so much effort. So far my method has been "well that's the plan so its going to have to happen somehow." But I would much rather train myself to not look for a quick fix for everything and instead reach for prayer first. Next I would love to find my weaknesses and learn to work through them without throwing a tantrum.
Anyone up for teaching me how to do my taxes?????
This may endanger whatever relationship we have, I will not be responsible for any emotional or physical harm we both may or may not experience...jk.....maybe..😀😁
For the update part: With my fundraising I am passing the 3000$ mark, and mind you a few weeks ago I kept telling people: "Well I think this is where God wants me so He's going to have to provide, because we both know I ain't no good at this." WELL........ This is God saying "WATCH ME." ;)
I am a week out and trying to scram to get everything packed up and organized because let's face it. I'm a last minute type of person..... But I am also collecting useful material to take with me and already getting a BIT nervous! Thank you for your support and all your kind words. I love getting to share this with you guys!
Love,
Jules
I even started laying out clothes to pack, and made an entire list of what all I need to bring! Now I have always loved the idea of simplifying my life down to one bag travel type of person...but I've come to realize this is going to be a very hard thing to accomplish... partially due to the fact that I absolutely hate having an 'empty' living space. It's so depressing to me and just does not feel like home. Also I am a very sentimental person... things can have value for the dumbest reasons and only when its 5 years later and I can't remember that reason does that thing get thrown out. It's a little embarrassing really...haha. Nevertheless moving and sorting and packing is the lifestyle that I signed up for when I moved across the Atlantic. Btw, for those of you being so kind and helpful about moving/ storing things, or keeping things for me, you have no idea how grateful I am. I do not have the luxury of just keeping my things with my parents because that would entail me shipping everything thousands of miles. Honestly for any international student/person this is probably one of the most helpful things you could do for them because storage units are expensive and its always a stressful process to do this on a regular basis just fyi! And for me personally it's right up there with financial responsibilities...
Anyways I finally got up the motivation today to start cleaning things, and then in my "procrastinative" nature sat down to finish this draft I've had open for days, because a new 'lesson' has been on my mind as of late and actually it accompanies the last one I told you about my battle with fears and worry. So in church they've been teaching from the book of Nehemia; and the last two Sundays I attended (I've been a little lazy...sorry!) have focused on Chapter 4 where the Israelites are trying to rebuild Jerusalem's walls and they are discouraged already to begin with because so many before them had failed, but then on top of that they were being challenged by enemies who didn't want them to succeed. Those enemies were seen and unseen. So our preacher pointed out a few things that got my attention, because they were those things you hear and then go: "Really God?.. okokokok I'm hearing ya!"
1. We are more likely to cave/give up to the roaring lion trying to devour us, when we are tired, lonely or discouraged.
2. We usually want things fixed the quick way -> we look for a pill to medicate our problems
3. Nehemia's plan involved prayer first and armed guards at the identified weaknesses in the wall.
Okay, I am well aware these are not earth-shattering bits of information to anyone..BUT! I know you have had those moments when all is going wrong and you're trying to learn from it and someone says the most generic, basic thing and it just shifts your perspective on your circumstances. Well I'm in that place right now. Every mountain I had to overcome last year would always make me want to give up on graduating. Well even now, the fear of not getting my finances together, lack of motivation to pack up my things, and ever more tasks that keep building up just keep beating down my energy and willingness to do something that is taking so much effort. So far my method has been "well that's the plan so its going to have to happen somehow." But I would much rather train myself to not look for a quick fix for everything and instead reach for prayer first. Next I would love to find my weaknesses and learn to work through them without throwing a tantrum.
Anyone up for teaching me how to do my taxes?????
This may endanger whatever relationship we have, I will not be responsible for any emotional or physical harm we both may or may not experience...jk.....maybe..😀😁
For the update part: With my fundraising I am passing the 3000$ mark, and mind you a few weeks ago I kept telling people: "Well I think this is where God wants me so He's going to have to provide, because we both know I ain't no good at this." WELL........ This is God saying "WATCH ME." ;)
I am a week out and trying to scram to get everything packed up and organized because let's face it. I'm a last minute type of person..... But I am also collecting useful material to take with me and already getting a BIT nervous! Thank you for your support and all your kind words. I love getting to share this with you guys!
Love,
Jules
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